Friday, August 22, 2008
A few more hours and I'll be on my flight.Nora's flying off later at 3 a.m.Bon Voyage,babe!Have a smooth trip..Although I don't think you'll really enjoy it cuz the whole flight is not smooth.But people have their own preferences,right?Maybe the trip won't be so bad for you.But it was DEFINITELY bad for me.So anyway,this morning,Ms Ong asked me to stay back in the parade square after the flag-ceremony.I,like,freaked out cuz I was wondering what wrong I did.I watched the whole class go by,looking at me curiously.Ms Ong called Mr Leong and told him that I was the girl that needed to go bcak to the Philippines early cuz my grandma was sick.So he brought me to the principal to ask for her permission.Oh God.I was hyperventilating by the time we reached Ms Sim.Thought she was not going to allow me cuz I still have one more English Paper next week.But she just smiled when Mr Leong told her about my problem and said things like,"Oh Dear," and "Oh my".You know,the usual things you say when you're worried and concerned 'bout something.Then she just asked me if I had any more test and I said No cuz Mrs Liaw said I could take the test when school re-opens after the 1-week September Holidays.Then she finally gave me the permission so I thanked her and felt kinda bad at that moment for sometimes calling her the names that a lot of people use.I won't do it again cuz she's quite a nice lady.I know,I know.I can hear ya'll making puking gestures and thinking,"What a suck-up".Well,whatever you think,I seriously don't give a damn.From now on,I'm going to stand on my own two feet and not get influenced by the crowd.Sigh..I'll miss the Cross-country race and the Teacher's Day celebration at both CCKSS and Dazhong.Pathetic,man.I mean,my first Teacher's Day celebrating it at CCKSS and My first Teacher's Day going back to Dazhong is non-existent.Netball was okay today.Not much training.At least not the usually tough and rough Coach gives us.Just went for the usual 2.4 km run from school to CCK park and then 7 sets of the circuit training,a bit of tag-ball and a game first between the juniors against the seniors then the juniors versus the juniors(plus a few stray seniors).Happy Birthday to Enid by the way.Oh,and to the Cliques,Gloria,Fitri,Hidayah,Shafirah and Dina,
I Love you,guys!You guys rock my world and I'm so glad that we're friends..
Hidayah,Shafirah and Gloria lent me a bit of cash to help me pay the Fine.Kinda long story so details next time,k.Just that it involved smoking and all.'Til next time,Hasta la Vista!Next time I'll post will be probably a couple of days later when I'm in the Phils cuz I'll be busy tomorrow.Need to go shopping.Oh,and Gloria,don't mind your friends.Wait for them to cool down and maybe they'll start talking to you in a few days.Just be patient.Bear with it for a while.And remember that if it doesn't work out,we'll always be here for you.me and the cliques.
10:18 p.m.
6:56 AM
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Friday, August 15, 2008
This post was supposed to be posted a few days ago,on my birthday.15 August lah.
Happy birthday to me
I am wild and friendly
I love my friends and my family
And I'm also funny
Today's my 14th birthday.Whoo-hoo!So happy.14 years ago,my mother went through a hard time bearing me.Thanks Mom!Oh,and Dad,too.Without him,I won't be happening.Hehe!You get what I mean,right?So anyway,went to school extra early today.Ended up in the same bus as Syaz again.I always end up in the same bus as her nowadays but I only notice her when the Teck Whye andn BPGH students alight.That's when the bus usually emptys.So I reached school and people started greeting me.Thanks guys!You know who you are.Actually the first person to greet me is Shashi.She greeted me the night before.But Yue Lin is the first to greet me in the morning.Followed by Syafiqah then Lia then Dad and finally Zi Ru.Yue Lin and Co. were teh first people to give me a birthday gift.Aww..Thanks guys.Rest of the day went by.Had a new malay teacher.Cikgu Khusairi.We actually greeted him as Cikgu Latif cuz that's his name according to Cikgu Latifah so imagine our surprise when he wrote his name down.For a second,there was this "What the-?" moment.Then someone started laughing so the whole class followed suit and started laughing too.So anyway the 'Cliques' surprised me after school during lunch.Dina covered my eyes adn Hidayah held my hand while guiding me towards the void deck.It was kinda scary cuz I can fall anytime.But I trusted cuz they're my friends and we're walking across the parade square anyway,ensuring me that I won't fall down cuz it's flat.Finally,after what seemed like centuries,they stopped at the exact moment I stepped on the longkang,cuing me that we've reached the void deck.Then,just like that,after a few murmurs, Dina uncovered my eyes while someone placed a soft toy and a card on my hand.I even heard Fitri saying "The wallet,the wallet!" or something.When my eyes finally adjusted,I saw that it was a cute little Winnie the Pooh.Plus a black card and a yellow coin purse with "Forever Friends" printed on it.They sang "Happy Birthday" and even Susillah(sorry,Senior.Not really sure how to spell your name) joined in.They asked me to read the card after the song ended and I actually laughed at first cuz it was really cheeky and funny.But I got all emotional and started crying.God!So embarrassing.But who could blame me?It was the most touching thing that someone has ever done for me.I never felt so happy and it was one birthday that I'll always remember.In fact,their gifts were so precious to me that I'm planning to laminate the card tehy gave me when I found the time.I love you guys!And I hope that we'll always be friends!I'm very happy that I met y'all!We went to Bukit Merah Sec for a friendly match.The seniors won(Congrats!) but unfortuantely the C-division lost(It's okay guys!We'll try again this coming Thursday against Yishun Sec!).But it's okay.At least now,we have the experience.And by the way,it made us bond together more,I think?Well,that's all.Back to the present which is the 19th.I'm having an early holiday.Yay!I'm taking the whole week off next week cuz I'm going back to the Philippines on the 24th.For personal reasons.I need to settle an urgent family matter concerning my grandma.So I won't be able to go on Teacher's Day.Boo-hoo!I won't see my ex-classmates.Sorry guys!Don't worry.We'll meet up one day,'kay?I'm very sorry,Shash.I didn't get to meet you that day cuz I wasn't on time again.Hope you understand me.So I'll be away from the 24th til the 9th,I think?Sigh..Went to neWater today.Went there before so nothing really new.Nevertheless,still had a good time cuz I was with my friends.Nora studied for Maths while I tried doing the worksheet they gave up,which I gave up on eventually.Ate all the way,too although it wasn't allowed.We felt like we were in a picnic.Then on the way home,we finished the food so I decided to nap.And the expected happens.What usually happens in every outing or field trip?People sleep and other mischievous people take pictures or videos,right.Well,Syazwan is no different.God!I can't believe him.You better watch out,brother.Mwahahaha!I'd probably stop here cuz I'm still finishing up my report on the Design Brief for Home Econs.Hasta la Vista!
9:14 p.m.
Reply-s:
Vivian:Sorry,hor.No pics.You want the one where I was topless?Haha.Like I'm ever gonna show that to anyone.Maybe next time.Be patient..
Shu Wen:You're welcome!
Shu Mei & Jia Hui:Linked!
Tricia:Whatevs.Stop trying to put yourself down.I'm not pretty.I don't think so.
Christopher:Thanks for tagging!Yeah,I know the exams are coming.But chillax,lah.You'll pass.=)
Aiman:Dah relink.Umm..who are you referring to when you said,"budak gila tuu siapa?"
Natasha:Hey,babe.No sweat bout that.I should be the one who's sorry for making you wait.Sorry,'kay.Hope you're not mad.Friends?
Syafiqah & Lia:Thanks for the greeting guys!
Lia:Thanks for making me appear in your previous post!
6:55 AM
The Beauty Exposed ;
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Am going to keep this post short cuz I gotta go to the mall to start on my Home Econs Design Brief.Yes.I'm just starting.How pathetic is that?It only reflects on my laziness.But I am trying my best to change.Really.Just that maybe I need more effort?Whatevs.Mrs Tan didn't come just now so this Mr Leong took over us class and brought us to the library.We viewed a book about the Istana,which Syaz had found,and Nora kept saying that one day,when she becames the first ever female prez,she will live in the Istana too and invite all of us to sleep over.And she will provide scholarships for everyone.And people don't need to go to school.Whoa!How great is that?Forgot to bring my Maths text and Mrs Ching asked all those who didn't bring to write their names down on a piece of paper.Wonder what she's going to do about that.And if she decided to call our parents,then that is SOO unfair.I mean,hello?We didn't even use the freakin' book.Ugh!But who cares about that?My main problem is what to cook tomorrow morning for the Home Econs practical.Aaagh!I'm going nuts just thinking about it.How are we supposed to make a snack and a drink out of $4?God!Please help me.Someone went mental in class again today.You should know who it is..Goodness..I think an Anger Management Programme would do him good.I mean,even the slightest teeny thing will fire him off.Duh!Psycho much?And I don't know why people are so scared of him.He's not even scary.He's just plain CRAZY.And we shouldn't even be afraid of CRAZY people.Pah!I fought with him once and he kept shouting at me and I noticed that his hands were balled up in a fist and they were trembling.Ooooh..I am SOO SCARED.Not.Who would be.Yue Lin tried calming him down and asked me to just drop it and ignore him.I AM leaving him alone.It's him who keeps finding a way to pick a fight with me.Go to hell lah fucker.There's my couzin.My Aunt's waiting in the car downstairs so I better go.She's like,really impatient and I might need to catch the bus if she leaves without us.Maybe I'll just take a cab?I really need to get there ASAP.Nah.Naver mind.Why waste $$$ when I can catch a free ride in a private SUV?(Why is it that Ella's family has a BMW SUV and we get stuck riding a bus?Oh well,they are Singapore citizens.But might as well discuss this with Dad.I want a car!)Hasta la Vista!
5:53 p.m
Reply-s:
Shu mei:Linked!
Tricia:No I'm not.I'm not pretty,okay.I'm,like,so fugly so stop trying to make me feel better!
2:31 AM
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Friday, August 8, 2008
Didn't come to school today.I actually woke up at the usual time.But at the last minute,I decided not to go to school cuz the damn t-shirt was,like,so ENORMO!I looked like wat?"An Indonesian Maid"?(As stated by Shafirah,who called me up early in the morn to ask me about netball stuff and to confirm whether someone else is in the same disastrous state as her,wearing an OVERSIZE red shirt.I don't even know why Firdani picked Large for me.Am I that HUGE?)I was planning to meet Shashi and some other ex-dazhong students but Shashi wasn't free so I decided against it.I'm really rushing cuz I've got to meet Ella at Vivo in a few hours for our weekly shopping(Hope Mom will give me more cash this time.Not that the one she's giving is not enough.It's just that I tend to overspend sometimes,just to see who goes home with more shopping bags.I don't want to keep spending my hard-earned saving(as if))So..Hasta la Vista!
6:35 p.m
Reply-s:
Shu Wen:yuo are so welcome.Anytime,anywhere.
Tricia:how many times must I tell you?I'm not chio!
3:23 AM
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Thursday, August 7, 2008
The National Day Rehearsal ate up the whole Geo period,man.But I guess it's okay.Just that kinda hot and stuffy and the stupid banner was blocking our view of the entire thing.Thank goodness they're taking it down tomorrow.Oh yeah,and by the way,ugh!I'm hating the fact that training is still on tomorrow.Not full training lah but we must run from the school gate to the gas station and back 2 times.Phew!No real tough training.Just jogging.Goody!How suckish is that?We will be running while others will be going back home to have a good time.Hope the others will agree to the Lot 1 plan.I don't wanna go home so early.I want to wreak havoc in the mall,specifically in the library.Had History and Science class test just now.What happened to the "Save trees.Say NO to common test." crap that I kept receiving via SMS or e-mail.I mean,hello,trees?Global Warming?Anyone?Hope I did well,anyway.Really afraid that I failed.I don't want to disappoint everyone.Anyway,the only thing in my mind now is:"To wear,or not to wear?"PE shirt I mean.School gave each and every one of us a Red T-shirt free to wear tomorrow for the ceremony.But I'm having 2nd thoughts on whether to bring my PE shirt to change into for training or to just wear my Singapore shirt.I'm like,really rushing right now 'cuz I wanna view my friendster before doing Home Econs Design Brief.(Can you hear me moaning?The Practical Exam is next week and yet I'm just starting.God!)Okay then.Hasta la Vista!
7:09 p.m
Reply-s:
Shu Wen:linked!
3:51 AM
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Monday, August 4, 2008
Nothing interesting happened today.Just that my Mom finally started talking to me.Whew!Right after mass,when we went out of the church,she was still ignoring.But then maybe she felt bad and started talking to me while we were waiting in line at Swensen's.Decided to go for the usual ice-cream again.Didn't really have any appetite to eat a lot.Didn't even finish the damn thing.I mean,the glass is like so tall that it reminds me of a goblet.Pah!Whatevs.Oh,and did I mention before that Mrs Liaw cried in class?It was like English period lah.It happened really suddenly that I didn't quite get what was happening.I was kinda absorbed with this new book I was reading(The title's The Other Sister by Susan Thompson Underdahl.Real good.(Hope I get some kind of acknowledgement from her for mentioning her book.Hehe.Just kidding.Ma'am,if you're reading this,I just wanna tell you that your book's fantastic and I loved it,okay)).Mrs Liaw has been yelling for the last 50 minutes?So anyway,with one last scream,she limped towards the door(I hate seeing her limp.It's like I suddenly see my Grandma and I suddenly miss her),her back facing us.We didn't realize that she had been crying until she turned back to us and started packing her things.Her eyes were red and it was obvious that she cried.I HATE seeing old people cry.Especially people like Mrs Liaw who are really good people.(I know some of you reading this are probably making gestures of barfing and thinking that I'm a suck-up,but seriously,she's a really good teacher if we just try looking at her at a different angle).But still she continued on with the lesson.It was actually OEL(Oral English Lesson) or Civics and Moral Education lah.We were talking about "Friendship" and she wrote 3 quotes on the board.She was actually trying to read it before she cried.So when she regained her composure,she asked me to read out the 3 quotes for her.Everyone was really quiet and all attention was on me,which naturally made me feel creepy.What?Did I say or do something wrong?Sigh..The air was really serious.Finally,the bell rang and before Mrs Liaw continued out the door,she turned to us and said,relating to one of the quotes she had written,"As it is stated on the board,'Everyone hears what you say.Friends listen to what you say.Best friends listen to what you don't say'.No one ever listens to what I have to say" or something like that.I don't really remember her exact words.But it was more or less like that.After that incident,a lot of people say that she had changed.Like,she issues offence forms even for a small thing.She said that we took advantage of her kindness and that if we didn't want her to be the nice teacher,she'll be cruel then.But actually,I don't really find any change in her.She's still the same Mrs Liaw.Nora didn't come to school today.I saw her last Saturday with her arm in a bandage.Hope she gets better soon.I'm missung the girl although I don't feel welcome in her presence sometimes.And by the way,I was already getting on with Alif but he ruined things again just now.He asked me to get the hell off his private life,called me a letchmi..again(If you're wondering what's letchmi..then don't ask me cuz I'm not certain.But I think it has got something to do with a person who's really dark,in terms of complexion lah) and said that someday,I'll be darker than him.As if that's ever going to happen.For his info,I take very good care of my skin(though I don't know why my zits are having a sequel in my life.They were supposed to have been banished from my face since after the exams.Probably the late nights I've been keeping again.I think I'm suffering from Insomnia.I can't sleep at night.I spend hours turning and tossing in bed for a few hours and only fall asleep 5-6 hours before I have to get up.Sigh..)I lotion everyday,to prevent myself from getting burnt(like him) and I try to use sunblock before Netball training if I have the time.Hah!I know it's sort of nasty and mean,but if Nabillah's going to continue entertaining him(which I so don't like cuz it freaks me out.They don't look cute.They look annoying),then I'm going to have to take a break with her until she realizes that he is not a good guy for her cuz he's someone who's willing to step on others just for the sake of being on top and getting what he wants.For one thing,I am NOT voting for him for the CCKSS Idol.I repeat.I am NOT going to vote for him.NOT in the present,NOT in the future,NOT in this lifetime,NEVER!Dream on.Pigs might fly first before I ever do a foolish thing like that.And to think that I was actually considering voting for him for the sake of Nabillah.Huh!I hope he doesn't win.Aku ketawer merabak kalau dia kalah.(Translation:I'll laugh like hell if he loses)Actually,come to think of it,I'll probably do a victory dance.And if I'm in a good mood,I'll probably strip.I don't know why Nabillah keeps entertaining him.He's not even worth entertaining.So pathetic.And it's obvious that Nabillah keeps vying for his attention.She loves his attention.She's always talking about him.And sometimes we're forced to join in her fantasy.I notice,you know.I just don't mention it for the sake of our friendship.But it's gone too far.Sorry if you're reading this Nabs=(Hope you don't get mad at me.Seriously,I very much preferred it when you liked Pau.At least even though he's slightly overweight,he doesn't seem like a bad person like you-know-who.That's all.I think I'm coming up with a migraine.My head's throbbing like crazy.Hasta la Vista!
7 p.m.
Reply-s:
Aiman:You are SOOO bad.Not funny,k.You practically cut off my oxygen supply.Ok lah.'twas kinda funny.Me screaming at Shaf to get her fucking hands off me while it was you all along.Haha!
2:52 AM
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Sunday, August 3, 2008
School had its annual Family Day Carnival yesterday.Reached school at 7:15,I think?Found Syaz and Joce at the Home Econs room.We were supposed to meet at the school gate at 7.00 but fell asleep at the bus stop and only realized that I missed the bus I was supposed to catch when this lady that's always in the same bus as me every morning woke me up to tell me that the bus had arrived.I looked at my phone and it was already 7.00.Great,just great!Thank goodness she woke me up.Jesse's mom,Mrs Chan,was baking choc-chip banana muffins when I arrived.I wanted to help but we were supposed to report to Mrs Teng and Ms Filzah at 7.30.I got picked as an ambassador,you see.So they briefed us on what to do.We were supposed to show P6-es around school.The people who knew how to tie ties stayed with Ms Filzah to help her.The rest were allowed to wander off until 7.55.I went to the canteen to check out our class stall.Walau!It looked so pathetic next to the Girl Guides' stall.Like,really empty and lonely.And then,when the time came for us to do our duties as the school's ambassador,it was even more pathetic.I stationed myself at the school gate.No luck.No one came in.But I must say that I like the way the tie felt on me.And I must admit that I like the way I looked with the tie(don't laugh,k.I rarely say these kind of things.)Anyway,fast-forward to after my second shift duty.Jared,Aisyah,Shaf,Aiman,Daniel, and me decided we want to see the haunted house thingy organized by a Sec 2 class.The line was like damn long as the max number of people who they're allowing in is 6.But after waiting for,like,what,an hour or 3o minutes?We finally made it to the front of the line.We could hear screams from inside.I wanted to turn back cuz I had a bad feeling that this was a bad idea and besides,my bladder was about to burst.But I went on anyway,to experience it.The first thing we saw when they led us down to the basement was a pontianak.It was actually a guy.And it was the only thing that surprised me cuz I was caught by surprise.After that pontianak,Daniel,who's in front,didn't want to be in front anymore.Aisyah was behind him.Then me,Shaf,Aiman,Jared and 2 other guys from Shaf's class.All of us were,like,shoving and pushing,wanting to be in the middle.Finally,we calmed down and went on,with Daniel still in the lead.The guy leading us led us through a door which was draped with curtains.I prepared myself for whatever was behind that curtain.Another guy with a flash light to his face walked towards us,making scary noises.Not really scary.But I screamed anyway,cuz everyone was screaming.We then turned a corner and entered another door.It felt cold,but I was certain there was no air-conditioning in the basement.Better ask someone bout that.We came to a clearing,kind of like a big room.It was really dark.The guy in front of us led Daniel around,with us in tow.It was kind of like a maze,cuz we kept turning here and there.After a while,my eyes adjusted to the darkness and I could roughly see shadows of benches.As we walked,cold,wet hands reached out to grab our legs.Then people standing on the benches started flapping some kind of cloth which was supposed to be a wing,but instead turned out to be weapon designed to whip us.(No la.It is a wing.It's just that they said that they kena hit in the eyes.)People sitting on benches had green light over their faces.Instead of getting scared,I got freaked out by them.The way they looked at us was really freaky.I nearly fainted and even felt my face going purple cuz someone kept pulling on my shirt,trying to strangle me.Finally,they led us through another door where there was a pot with a dead plant planted on it and a severed head(a mannequin)positioned among the bare branches and beyond that was the exit.Whew!Every one of us was sweating profusely when we got out.The other people in line were looking at us.Ha!Actually,all of us planned to scream like hell when it was our turn so that the others in line would get scared.Don't know if it worked.But judging from the looks of a few P6 students in line,I guess they were going to give it a miss.When we were finally outside,surrounded by fresh air,we started talking about the experience.Overall,it wasn't too bad.Although I must say that I was kind of disappointed cuz I was expecting something more scarier.But to their credit,it was fairly well.Daniel got a cut on his finger.Don't know where he got it from.I was scolding Shafirah who I knew was standing behind me for pulling on my shirt when she said that she wasn't even holding on to my shoulder and was in fact,holding on to my waist.So I started getting freaked out.Who the hell was pulling on my shirt.That's when I turned to Aiman and saw him laughing like shit.Turned out that he was the one pulling on my shirt all along while holding on to Shaf.Gee,can't he just hold on to one person or was he really trying to strangle me?You ask him.Went home with Yuk Sing after that.I thought that my day was perfect but I thought wrong.I got into a heated argument with my parents and made my Mom cry.I hate seeing my mother cry.In fact,I'll kill if anyone ever makes her cry.But there I was,making her cry.I said some pretty nasty things.I cried until my eyes went puffy.Ugh!I hate it when that happens.My mom even said that I was selfish,materialistic and that I didn't love them.And that I shouldn't ever find love from her cuz she doesn't love me anymore cuz I only loved myself and that I was only looking for materialistic things,not their love.When she said that,I felt like something inside me erupted and that things will never ever be the same again.Last night,and even now,I doubt my mother's love for me.I wonder if what she said was really true.That she doesn't love me anymore.I know that when we're finally okay,I'll always wonder whether my mother genuinely loves me or only loves me for the sake of loving her own children.My eyes are still puffy and I could feel tears forming behind my eyes.Anytime now,they're going to spill down my cheeks,like a dam suddenly opened only to realease the water it has been blocking.But I guess that last night also opened up an opportunity for me to open up myself and tell my parents that I've been having a lot of problems at school lately.I told them that I don't know where I really belong.That I didn't understand myself and that I was having a hard time figuring out who I really was.And that I didn't know who I was cuz I wasn't the same Kimberly that they knew and love.Well,the last line was my father's.She said that from sweet Kimberly I suddenly turned into this really evil bitch.And when I made my mom cry,he loved her so much that he whipped my legs with his belt.The physical pain was temporary and it was nothing compared to the emotional pain I felt.In fact,I'd much rather prefer getting hurt physically than emotionally.I nearly fainted cuz I couldn't breathe from all the crying when they said those things.I told them about my the Geo project incident and they asked me why I didn't tell them earlier and I said that I didn't want them to worry cuz they have a lot in their minds and that I didn't want them to go to school in case they quarreled with other parents cuz I loved them and didn't want to add on the things they're always worrying about.Okay.The tears officially spilled.I can't go on anymore.I just hope that you guys will understand if I get crabby for the next few days cuz I'm currently in the middle of a family problem.The thing I'm only looking forward to now is my birthday which is 12 days from now.I hope that by then,things will cool down and return bact to normal.Hasta la Vista!
4:32p.m
P.S.I don't think I can reply any of your tags for now.I feel really sucky.I just hope that I will have someone who will be there for me when I need them.Who will listen to my problems,lend me a helping hand,and help me up at times like this when I fall down and hurt myself.The people that we all know as a "bestfriend"...
12:21 AM
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