Thursday, November 27, 2008
Dammit.Didn't go for training today.Again.Mywhole body's aching like crap.And I've lost my voice.It's,like,damn hoarse now that I prefer not to talk at all than to talk and sound like a freakin' horse.Neigh!!Shit.So,anyway,not much to post.Only that I'vev started training with my seniors.Not as bad as I thought it would be.Phew.Even played a match against the C-division.I played against them.Sigh..I miss being a C-Division.I was so scared when Coach asked me to take GS.Dang!What if I disappointed them.But then I managed to shoot a ball.Which was,like,a total relief cuz I was playing under Coach's and Jia Xian's watchful eyes.But both Coach and Jia Xian congratulated me and said that I played good so another long,heavy sigh.Cheyy.Next stop,Kembangan.Hahaha!I'm so bored here at home.Oh,Congrats to the B-Division for winning.And the C-Division,we can do it again!Don't give up!Anyway,has anyone noticed how easily I crush?I mean,seriously,I see a cute guy then suddenly,Boom,it's Love City for me.I don't know why.Shit.But not to worry,I've made an oath to harden my heart and not fall for guys so easily the next time.Promise.I'm on the verge of giving up guys.I wish someone will come along real soon and make me change my mind.Oh.I want a bestfriend,too!It's not fair.Why don't I have a bestfriend?I want someone who I can cry my heart out to.Someone who will listen to me anytime.Who will give me their shoulders to cry on.Someone who I can trust all my deepest,darkest secrets to.Someone who will comfort me.Someone who will give me their hand when I need it.Who will help me.Who will listen to me.Someone who accepts me for me.For who and what I am.I want someone who I can be with without having to act like an entire different person.I always feel that way.That I have to be what others want me to be so that I can fit in with them.But I've been thinking and I don't want that anymore!!I don't wanna live in a lie.There's so much more to me than what meets the eye.Nobody knows the real me.I never opened up myself to anyone since arriving here in Singapore.I've always kept to myself and put on this mask that hid what was really underneath it.That hid the real me.Nobody understands me except for my bestfriend in the Philippines but she's,like,a hundred miles from me!God.I'm tearing up.Well,Hasta la Vista!
6:38 AM
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Friday, November 21, 2008
Oh my God!!I've been a bad blogger.I just realized that I've been neglecting my bloggy for friendster.Sorry,kay?Haha!Not to mention that Christmas is coming so I'm kinda busy with shopping for prezzies,Christmas decos and stuff.Oh,and cleaning the house,too.And putting up the Christmas tree.And decorating it.And netball.Need I say more?Anyway,this entry is for you,Aiman and Jenn Yeong(Ah Gong!!I miss you lei!!See you soon!!) !!I know that you're dying to hear another scandalous story from me.Just kidding!Umm..let's see.Where should I start?Oh yeah.Let me start it off by telling you what happened when I decided to watch High School Musical 3 with Syaz,Shaf and Aisyah.It happened,like,a few weeks ago but I've only got time to tell it to you now.So we took the 2 pm slot one Thursday afternoon.The four of us decided to meet at Lot 1 first before proceeding to Jurong Point,where we were going to watch the movie.But being me,the most unorganized(or was it disorganized?Fuck!I don't know!) and most un-punctual person,I woke up at 12 pm exactly 30 minutes before I need to meet the girls.So I called Shaf and told her to go ahead without me and that I was going to catch up with them.After a real quick shower and 30 minutes in front of the mirror(yeah.I take that long.Even though the make-up that I put on is only powder,blush-on,mascara and gloss.),I rushed out of the house and quickly made my way to Jurong East.Yes!Jurong East!I alighted at Jurong East!!I called Shaf before I went down and she said they'll wait for me at KFC.So I waited at KFC for,like,10 minutes?I got tired and decided to call them.But just my luck,my cellphone got PUK-ed so I had to find a freakin' public phone.Yuck!I hate using public phones and only use them when there's no choice.I was so mad.I finally found a phone and managed to call them.They taught me the directions again.And so finally,after calling them the 3rd time,I think? I asked them if Jurong Point was in Jurong East and Shaf was,like,"Siala!Jurong Point is at Boon Lay.Not at Jurong East!" or something like that.I felt like I was going to throw up on the spot but I swallowed hard.I quickly went to Boon Lay,afraid that there would be no more seats next to them available.Thank goodness Aisyah bought one for me already.I found them waiting for me,outside the MRT station.Boy,was I relieved.I nearly cried cuz I thought I got lost and the pay phone from where I called them was filled with Indian construction workers.I finally know the true meaning of one's cellphone being one's life line.The importance of my cell.Seriously.I realize that I can't live without my mobile.I laughed at myself like crap when I realized how stupid I was.I had a great time in the end.But hell!Was it cold inside the cinema.I momentarily forgot that watching movies in Singapore was like going to the North Pole.Cinemas in the Philippines are,like,damn warm or hot sometimes when it is packed.Oh,don't forget the people who watch the movie standing up.Yes!In the Philippines,you can actually buy tickets to watch the movie standing up!Cuz sometimes,the hall gets too packed,so if you really want to watch the movie,and there are no more seats available,you just purchase a ticket to watch the movie standing up.Oh,there are no seat numbers there either.So you just have to find a seat in the dark.It's suckish like that.The good thing about watching movies there is that you can stay and watch the movie for as long as you like.Like there was this one time when I watched this movie with my cousins.We enetered the hall when it was already halfway done.So I was kinda disappointed cuz I felt like I just wasted my money.So when the movie ended,I stood up prepared to go and my cousins just sat there,looking at me like I was stupid."Umm..hello?The show has ended.Shouldn't we be going?"I said.They laughed and told me that no,we should stay and watch the first part of the movie.I was shocked."So,you mean,we can watch it over and over again?Even if we stay until tomorrow?"They looked at each other,then at me and then they nodded and cracked up laughing all over again.The movie ended again and we went out of the hall and my cousins asked this guy at the hall entrance to chop our hands and he did.I asked them what it was for and they said that the chop gave us power to go in again anytime,even the next week as long as the chop was still visible.Weird..Anyway,back to the present.I didn't bring my sweater so I nearly frozed my ass off.Fortunately,Troy Bolton was there,looking all cute and hot enough to thaw me.LOL.Actually,not that hot.But enough lah.What else is there to say?Oh yeah,I met this guy,Fitri's older brother two weeks ago and we've been texting eversince.He's nice but I'm definitely NOT going to fall for him cuz that would complicate things.So we're just friends.I just wished he'd stop flirting with me. :( Haha!!Just kidding!Fit,if you're reading this,then sorry,kay.Don't tell your brother anything.I love the guy.But not in that way.He's the big brother that I've always wanted.And besides,I don't want the whole Alfian fiasco to happen all over again.History has a way of repeating itself,right?No offence,Sha!I don't hate your brother.Oh,and Fit!How dare you tell Coach and the others that you don't want me to be your sis-in-law!That's not going to happen lah.Relax.But still,you shouldn't have told them.Anyway,the guy's name is Asyraf.Is it a coincidence that I pranked a guy from my school named Ashraf a few weeks ago and I accidentally fell in love with another Ashraf(Nora's bestfriend's younger brother,but he's my age,okay.And I'm over him,Nora.You don't need to lecture me anymore.)Does this means that I'm stuck with Ashrafs/Asyrafs for the rest of my life?Well,that's all.Oh yeah.Before I go,you know the Christmas song "I saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus?".The one Michael Jackson sang when he was a child.I'm so very greatly disturbed by it.I mean,little Michael,how stupid can you be?Don't you realize that the Santa Claus you saw your Mommy kissing is your Daddy?God!How obvious can it be.It's not like your Mom's having an affair with Santa Claus.Even the 5-year-old me realized that the Santa Claus I know is actually my Dad everytime he puts money in my and my brother's Christmas stockings and put prezzies under the Christmas tree every Christmas.Tsk.Ok.Ciao!Oh,wait a sec!One more thing.Today's my Mom's birthday.So,Happy 43d Birthday Mom!Please rebond your hair cuz it's starting to frizz and get wavy.Oh,get a tri-colour,too!'Til next time,Hasta la Vista!!
11:54 am
Reply-s
Aiman:Dah update eh.
Jenn Yeong:Ah Gong!Ya hor.Really long time no see lei.See you soon,kay.Miss And Luv ya!!Mwah!(as a friend lah,brader.) :D
Shafirah:Whoops!Sorry Safirah.Eh,I mean,Shafirah.Ehe!Typo lah,sis.
Kristal & Ivy:Linked!
Natasha:Relinked!!
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