Monday, April 20, 2009
Finally went back to school again. Yay! As usual, didn't know what Matthew was talking about during English lesson so didn't bother to listen. Anyway, it was just that "Walking with Giants" corrections so just copied where necessary. Wore my FBT shorts for PE. Actually, last night, I decided to just wear my school PE shorts then just bring my FBT shorts just in case Lee Kok Kok gives us a nag-a-thon. But then, this morning, I accidentally tore my PE shorts. I was, like, rubbing my eyes with a cotton ball to take off the fucking waterproof eyeliner when the cotton ball dropped. Obviously, I bent down to take it and that's when I heard a slow, ripping sound. I was wondering what the hell just ripped but I was rushing so I didn't take notice of it until my mother asked me if I needed her to alter my shorts. I was, like, "What the hell? Alter for what? My shorts are perfectly fine.". Then she started laughing with my brother and I started getting annoyed. What was their problem, anyway? It's 6:30 in the morning and nothing gets a person more pissed off than being made fun of early in the morning or when she just woke up. And, to add to my annoyance, I couldn't find my name tag and my Class Com badge anywhere. Oh, and my eyes were raw too, from all the scrubbing( where the hell is that freakin' make-up remover?!). So I stormed off to check myself in the mirror and that was when I realized that my shorts was split into two behind. Ugh! I ripped it off altogether and put on the FBT shorts. Well, on the brighter side, at least I didn't need to lie to Mr Lee. He didn't look like he cared, anyway. I mean, Yue Lin and Zi Ru didn't need to give excuses and he didn't even bat an eyelid. So that means that I won't be wearing that horrendous PE shorts anymore. Which is a great relief. Home Ec was surprisingly short. I think it's because I kept laughing with Zi Ru and all. And as they say, time flies when you're having fun. Syazwan and I wanted to skip Mrs Chan's lesson so we told Mrs Chan that we "needed" to go back to class to get our Design Briefs and textbooks. But then we left our stuff in the kitchen so no choice but to return. I did return. Wan went inside the boys' toilet to hang out with Baey & co. Turned out they found a mobile phone. Mrs Chan asked me to find Wan when I got back. I willingly agreed to waste more time. He wasn't in class or at staircase G so I decided to check out the boy's toilet. I wasn't planning to go inside but then I didn't hear anyone inside so I thought, "What the heck! What's the worse that can happen?". So I was about to step inside when OH MY GOD guess who walked out. I stopped in my tracks and stared at HIM. HE stared back for a while before walking away. HE was already going inside his class when I got my tongue back. Dammit! Should've at least asked HIM to help me check if Syazwan was inside! And I know that I've already swore to forget HIM, but hey! It takes time, kay. So I got embarrassed and decided that I would just wait outside til some guy walks out and ask him to help me. Unfortunately, Jaslani was the next person to walk out. Ugh! He is such a pain sometimes. I think he wasn't expecting me there cuz he jumped and said some swear words. I screamed quite loudly, actually VERY loudly(I am soo embarrassing sometimes. Okay, ALL the time.). I wasn't expecting anyone to be inside, kay. I asked him if Wan was inside but he said no. So I wandered around to waste a few precious minutes before reporting back to the kitchen. I think she suddenly suspected that I was just wasting time so she asked Emerson to search. Did the Home Ec diet-related quiz. Shit! We were talking about popcorn, me, Zi Ru, Song Hong and Wan. But they were all the way from acroos the room so we were talking quite loudly. The guys were correcting Zi Ru cuz she kept saying porkcorn, pockcorn instead of popcorn. So I decided to join them but I, being the sleazy one, said "cockcorn" instead of popcorn. Mr Kong was passing by at the time I was saying that. OMG! So embarrassing and so scary! No wonder everyone suddenly fell silent and my stupid "cockcorn" joke seemed to echo throughout the room. I shut my trap and did the test. Everyone laughed when Mr Kong walked away. Gosh! Thank goody he didn't give me detention or anything. He's caught me doing and saying embarrassing stuff a lot of times already. Cikgu Latifah followed the Sec Ones for camp so she wasn't there for mother tongue. yay! haha! Spent the entire two periods gossipping with Shaf, Afiqah and Ramdan(yes! The bulu is actually a gossip!). And our subject for the day is *drumroll* Khairul! As in, Shaf's fugly stalker. Ew! He creeps me out, mna. I mean, the way he looks at people. It's as if he wants to rape you or something. I never fail to talk about Shaf's "fugly stalker" extra loudly whenever he's around. Plus, I snub him whenever our eyes meet. Just so he knows that he is not welcome in our circle. Hmph! Not to be mean, but seriously, uploading people's pictures in your PSP secretly? Yuck! The guys were gossipping as well. And surprisingly, I turned out to be one of their subjects. They were talking in hushed tones but then I heard my name so I looked at them and Afiq, one of the he-gossips, asked me if I was wearing eyeliner and I said no so he turned to Nash and said "She say she not wearing but she wearing lah.". What?! It's bad enough when girls gossip, but guys? And once again, for the record, I am NOT wearing make-up to school. Well, yeah, I do wear powder. But not eyeliner! Crispan, Nash, Afiq, Syafii. Who else?! So my efforts in rubbing my eyes were futile. And to think that I rubbed till my eyes turned red and raw. Bullshit. Had Mr Ranganathan for PC. Ugh! So boring. He gave us this balloons and asked us to play this pathetic game that noone seemed to want to play. Why is our class so not enthu? It's pathetic. Then he got angry (whoa! Yoga Master knew how to get angry?! Shocker!) and took back all his balloons. Gave us work to do instead. About sex and stuff. Why don't they just give us condoms like they did in 17 Again? That would be better!
I'm getting sleepy now people. So Ciao!
6:19 AM
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Sunday, April 19, 2009
Here I am again. About to sleep. Runny nose is almost over. Thank God! I don't wanna keep sniffing and sneezing in public. Especially sneezing. Like, you know some people sneeze so..so..delicately. It's like, "achoo." and that's it. Yes, it's not even an "achoo!".It's an "achoo.".Like Mathhew. He sneezed in class a few days ago and that was how he sneezed. I don't know how people do that, but I'm definitely not one of those people. I'm more to the "HACHOO!!" "HACHOO!!" "HACHOO!!" type. Yepp. Three times (sometimes four) in a row and really, really, noisy. I like letting it all out. It gives me this satisfaction. Mom scolds me all the time when I sneeze. She orders me to act more lady-like. But I never listen. It's not like I can control how my body works.
Today, woke up at 11:00 to have a quick brunch before having a short shower and heading out to church at 12:30. We were late for, like, 10 or 15 minutes. But hey! Twasn't my fault. I just did foundation at home and did the rest of my face in the taxi. Which, I must tell you, is really inconvenient. I mean, I smudged my eyeliner three times when it made a turn, poked my eye with the f*cking mascara wand when the vehicle suddenly jerked to a stop and smeared my cheek with the lippy. So, a little tip to everyone out there. Try not to apply your make-up in a moving vehicle. Anyway, after mass, met Nora and Syazwan at Lot 1 to watch Zac Efron's 17 Again (God!!! Zac is soo cute!). The movie only starts at 3:20 but they wanted to meet at 2:30 so we didn't know what to do with the 50 minutes we had (puh-leaze! Is there anything you can do in Lot 1 that's remotely interesting? You tell me.). In the end, we sat around inside that arcade place beside the theatre halls and gossiped. Twenty minutes before the movie starts, we decided to buy the popcorn and all. But then, they haven't opened the hall so we stood around outside, eating. By the time we got to our seats, only three-third of my popcorn was left. The movie was okay, I guess. Some funny moments here and there. Moderate amount of kissing scenes. Some disgusting scenes (so totally cougar. Like, umm.. Madonna and her latest ex-boy-toy. Ew.). If anyone's watching, please do tell me. I want to watch it again. The story's quite cute. OKay, fine. I wanna watch it again cuz I want to see Zac Efron again. But the storyline's not that bad either.
Went home after the movie. Had to rush over to Aunt Mary's house. ACtually, we were supposed to watch the movie with Amsyar yesterday. But Nora wasn't free so we went today. However, Amsyar wasn't the free one today. But I really wanted to watch the movie ASAP. It's either today or never. So today it is.
Finally going to school tomorrow. Zi Ru, Yue Lin and I are wearing FBT shorts for PE. Netball girls must stay together at all times. One for all, all for one! Although, we probably need to think of some excuse to tell Lee Kok Kok. It is said that he bans FBT shorts. Crap. But it is also known that he is quite gullible (tried and tested by yours truly :D).
Got to go now! By the way, I don't know what's wrong with my MSN. I think it's been infected by some virus. I mean, messages like "I saw you at this party last night! Check it out at : http://www.(insert-nonsencical-words-here).com" or "wanna check out hot and horny lesbians doin IT? go to : http://www.(whatever-crap).com" keep getting sent from my offline contacts. It's annoying me!! Hope it ends soon. Or else, I might be forced to create another MSN account. Which, as many of us will know, is bloody troublesome.
Ciao! xoxo
6:38 AM
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Friday, April 17, 2009
Didn't go to school again. Ugh! This sucks! I'm seriously missing school. Especially my friends. Even the teachers, for God's sake! I hate being cooped up at home. I mean, on the plus side, I can sleep in til noon. But that's it. And I'll probably gain some weight. Cuz all I did all day was pig out. On bland stuff. Like fruit juices or fruit kebabs. No junkfood, according to the doctor. But puh-leeeeaze. It's just a friggin' flu. Runny nose. That's all. So I don't understand why I can't eat any chocolate or chips. Mom hid everything. Don't know where she kept the junkie. However, I'm not that stupid. I bribed Ella to bring me some choc and chips when she visited this afternoon. Actually, it was more like blackmail. But hey, desperate times call for desperate measures. Just finished eating a whole box of Famous Amos cookies and a huge bag of Ruffles. Cheddar Cheese. Mmmm. And a few bars of choc. Boost, Twirl, Time Out, Kit Kat and a whole bag of Hershey Kisses. God. I feel good right now. Like I'm in heaven or something. And heavy. Dammit. What can I do to shed this fat? I'm sure that I'm missing out a lot in school. Wonder how everyone is. Wonder what is the latest happening. I spent the whole day in front of the computer that it's giving me a head-ache. Oh, and by the way, I just top upped my phone with a month's supply of credit so please feel free to text me. In fact, I'm begging you to text me. I'm getting so bored. Also, what's up with me nowadays? It's, like, I get annoyed easily at the slightest thing. Is it puberty or what? One second, I'm laughing and smiling and feeling so happy. Next thing you knowm I'm mad and then another second later, I'm crying and feeling miserable and all. It's really suckish, these mood swings. I hope I can go back to school on Monday. Nothing to report, really. The only time I can report about something is when I go to school cuz all the excitement happens there. Otherwise, without school and friends, my life would be Yawnville.
Ciao! xoxo
3:33 AM
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Thursday, April 16, 2009
Didn't go to school today. I woke up with a dry throat and a really runny nose. Sigh.. Mom brought me to the doctor around 12. I miss school sooo much!! Can't wait to go to school tomorrow. I do have an MC for two days and excused from PE for a week.
Went to Regent sec yesterday for a friendly. Sad thing, though, is that no transportation was provided. God! Pathetic, much? Budget sial. So took the 307 bus there. And it was damn stuffy! Everyone was, like, squeezing. Thank Goodness Dina managed to snag seats for us. They were good, alright. I think we lost, by a bit? Wore my blue shirt and FBT short. Fit said I looked hot. "Thanks, babe!" (dah kembang, nampak. hehe! But hey, it's not everyday that people say that to me. haha!) Took pictures with the clique then the whole team during the C-division's game. Went home at around 5.55 pm. Shafirah, Fit, Glo and I went back to school cuz I needed the toilet urgently. Dina and Hidayah went back. The school was really quiet. Probably because the netball girls weren't there. haha! XD But honestly, the netball girls are indeed noisy.
Yesterday was kinda like a break for us. I didn't really feel like I learned anything. I mean, Mrs Ching brought us to the com lab to do "explore" that Graphmatica and GPS programme. Zi Ru and I were tempted to play the games on Fu Rong's file but then, we were sitting in front so it wasn't really safe from Mrs Ching's sharp eyes. Watched this video during OEL. 'This week's topic was "Resilience". There was this Coach who kept screaming at his captain not to give up and to keep on going. The Captain of the said Football team was crawling across the hundred-yards field with another guy lying on him. So you can probably imagine teh torture. Pity, pity. The Coach sounded like some kind of psycho so everyone was, like, laughing. There was some moral from it, though not many had seemed to notice.
Ma'am wasn't in school again. Coach relieved our class. I fell asleep for a while before Baey slapped me. Cb..
Anyway, after much thinking, I've decided to stop my bullshit once and for all. It's not as if I can have HIM. Plus, it's way too complicated. I don't wanna get in too deep. So might as well stop now while the feelings are just starting. It doesn't hurt as much as it would if I were to wait longer. Plus, it would be easier than when I totally fall for him. So, this will be the last day that I'll actually fantasize about HIM. After today, no more guys. Buh-bye boys! I've had enough! The DEADLINE's nearing and still, NOTHING. I'm only delaying everything. Maybe it's because I just can't bring myself to face the fact that nothing's ever gonna happen in my life that will actually make me happy. Life is such a bitch. :(
That's all, I think. Ciao, people! Ciao! :)
P.S. Fit, who says I can't fuck 5 people at the same time? Try me. XD hehe!
1:35 AM
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Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Morning started off suckish. I just got down from my house when I saw the bloody bus passing. I ran to catch it but no such luck. In the end, had to wait for a while before 187 came. I was thinking of waiting for the next 985 to come. But it usually takes ages to come so I decided to take 187 if I didn't want to be late. In the end, I still ended up on the 985 bus. Ugh! Should've waited!! Anyway, Syazzie came today. Yay! Missed you lah, babe! Took the "long cut" with the "gang" again after flag-raising. I mean, hello?! Three periods of Matthew!! Three periods of looking at his face! No offence. Ms Shan's class was really short. Just one period. By the way, I love her! She's, like, really cool! And she's funny too. In a sarcastic way. Science was a DRAG.. Did the data logging thingy again. I thought we've already moved on to sexual reproduction?! What is happening?! Played a stare-down match with Crispan since he was across the aisle from me. First time, I won. Second time, I lost. My eyes started itching. I don't know why. Probably because of the lab's air. It's definitely polluted with chemicals. Nora, who was sitting in front of me started coming up with secret handshakes and codenames for us. She was "Lovey". I was "Dovey". You know? As in "Lovey Dovey"? Amsyar was "MeLove" cuz I kept calling him "Amsyar! My love!". haha! Syazwan was "WanLove". And by the way, speaking of which. He actually wrote "Nino" as his name on Ms Shan's history test. Giler kaper? haha! Wan, Kevin and Baey lepak at the staircase G after Science cuz they wanted to waste a few minutes before going for Mrs Ching's lesson. Mr Low's lesson wasn't so bad cuz it was in an air-conned room. Although it was still boring. Tsk.
After school, went to Queensway with Fit and Aiman. Didn't really know the way cuz it was our first time going there. Bought an FBT short there before going to Mac to eat. Seriously, I'm sick of Ronald Macdonald. I want a change. Like, maybe, The old man(KFC) or The pirate(LJS). ANything. It's, like, the nearest fast food restaurant to school. Ugh! Apart from the ones in Lot 1, that is. Hurriedly went back to school cuz Fit was hoping to meet Ash before she went home. No such luck, though.
Anyway, do you really, really want to know what happened today that made me depressed and extremely humiliated?! I was selected for the UNSW thingy. But it was, like, 3 to 4. And if we left school at 4, we're gonna go home late. So I told Pretty Woman that I could not attend it as I had to go to Lavender to complete some documents. It was a not total lie, okay. But it was enough. I feel bad, though. But still, I needed to buy an FBT short for tomorrow! So I was, like, hanging out with Fit and Aiman at the canteen cuz HE was there(I know. Totally gatal. But nuh-uh! Didn't even do anything worth calling "gatal".) Fit was hanging out with Ashraf who was hanging out with him and their other friend. They both suggested that we should get going while the trio were buying food. But I was, like, "No way, Jose!" (haha! 2/5's most FAVE phrase) and I think I got what I deserved. Cuz when they returned to their table, which was just next to where we were standing, friggin' Ash started smiling at me slyly behind HIS back while pointing to HIM. And then I looked at Bukhairi and he was also smiling. Great. So he knew as well. But then Ash suddenly said, "Eh ***.." and I thought he was gonna tell so I walked out. Sat with Izyan near the pond while calling Fitri and asking her to please go to where I was sitting. The bitch was actually laughing when she arrived with Aiman! How dare they! Ugh! I looked like a crazed woman, sittiing there with my hair disheveled and my legs spread apart. Turned out Ash didn't tell HIM. Dammit! He was just tryna scare me! I digged my own stinky graveyard! And when I walked out, Sulaiman suspected that something fishy was going on! So he asked them if I liked HIM. So the truth started spilling out from Ash and Bukahiri. Oh my God! Not good! Soo totally not good! I felt like crying!! I hate it when a guy knows I'm crushing on him. Like, I'll never be able to walk around in school like I used to. AAAAAAAARGH! I hate them!! Where am I gonna put my face tomorrow?! I'll probably hide under a plastic bag. I'm dreading it! NOOOOOOO! This cannot be happening. Fuck Sulaiman. Fuck Ash and Bukhairi. Fuck Fit. Fuck Aiman. Fuck them alll!!
Ciao!! >(
4:47 AM
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Monday, April 13, 2009
Currently alone at home. Mom and Bro went to family friend's house. Actually, it wouldn't be too bad if i went along with them cuz her sons are exceptionally HOT (especially, the one that's like, a year older than me.). Unfortunately, not too interested in them cuz I only have eyes for him. Sigh.. And by the way, to all those part poopers out there who are, like, encouraging me to forget him, well, sorry to say. But I just can't do it.
Syazwani wasn't in school today. Wonder what she's up to. ;D
Matthew's English period was, whoa! Didn't even know what was going on. Though I was kinda quiet today cuz my phone got confiscated by Ms Maz during morning assembly. Fuck. I was, like, trying to fish it out of my pocket to remove the bloody headphones when I accidentally plugged them out. Great, just great. "T-shirt" by Shontelle suddenly blasted from it. So pai seyy. But then, thank goodness it was not some cheesy old song. Plus, everyone was already going back to class. Cuz if it actually happened while King Kong was giving out the announcements, oh God. I would be dead meat.
Ran for 2.4 during PE. Technically, Nora did arrive first. But in reality, I should've been first. :( But never mind. S'ok. At least I know that I did my best. And it was so totally worth it to actually run all the way. Cuz our paths crossed! Literally. I don't mean the "romantic" way. haha! But still, sigh.. God! Gushing about him makes me feel guilty! Cuz it's not as easy as it seems. There are a lot of complications and I'm doubting if I can actually like him for a long time. Tsk. But damn. He is just soo CUTE!
Didn't eat anything at all today. Mr Leong asked to meet the class commitee members during recess.He gave us only, like, 15 minutes. And I needed to change! Hello! But anyway, it was just a bloody rehearsal for the Investiture that was going to happen during assembly.
Due to the rehearsal mentioned above, the Class Com members arrived late for Home Ec. Mrs Chan already wen through the evaluation report with them. Not that I really care. It was written on the white board for God's sake! Also, she gave us some time to update our Design Briefs. I've already "finished" mine. Kinda. So I just sat around, singing, vandalising the table, doodling, helping "the world's sexiest chef" (Kevin la. hha! He is so clueless. Mrs Chan asked me to help him with the stove. It was actually turned on already. Hayy, hayy, hayy..) with his cooking (actually, I wasn't supposed to help him. It was a practical test, for crying out loud! But then, I didn't help him either. I just walked around, looking at what he was cooking until Mrs Chan asks me to return to my place and quote here fave line : "Why do you have to make my life miserable?". Aiyoh. I don't know why, but she's saying it all the time. Is she actually leading a miserable life? I doubt it. She looks liek she's living "the" life. Then we did some activities on the workbook 'bout health-related diseases. And I was, like, asking bout constipation cuz I'm suffering from it ( really. It's been days since I last produced choco) . As it turned out, constipation was one of then answers. Some were asking her how it felt to suffer from it and she said,"Aiyah. Just ask Kimberly, lah. I thought she said she's suffering from constipation, mah.". Huh! Everyone laughed, okay. Embarrass people, only. Haha! Anyway, I'm a good sport and I don't mind laughing at myself. So I just laughed along although I did turn quite red.
Had the investiture during assembly after Ms Sim's "short" speech. It was not as scary as expected. Perhaps it was because I got used to it.
Got my phone back from Ms Maz after that. I sought her, okay! I soo CANNOT live without my mobile! It's, like, my lifeline!
Went home after that. With Joce. Was supposed to go to Lot 1 cuz Amsyar said he's gonna treat us cuz it's his birthday (Happy Birthday, bestie!). Unfortunately, he has a lot of malay homework to do. So we postponed it to Thursday. Cuz CCA's on on Wednesday and I'm going to Queenstown with Fit and Aiman tomorrow to buy the friggin' FBT short for this Friday's match with Regent (go netballers!).
Anyway, I hope that you work things out, soon, babe. Talk to him personally lah. Communicating via technology is totally the latest thing, I know. But it won't help. Cuz you need to see the other person in order to judge if he's really sincere or what. Plus, if you think that there's nothing in this relationship that's worth saving, then maybe it's just best if you finish it now, right? Not that I'm trying to interfere here. I'm just expressing my opinions cuz I don't want you to get hurt. Yes, you will probably get hurt if that happens (which, I hope, won't. Touchwood!) . But it's better to get hurt now than later on. Also, what if he actually initiates the break-up (God! Touchwood AGAIN!) ? Wouldn't that hurt your ego more? The school will know that he dumped you and not you dumped him. That'd be terrible, I'm sure. In any case, it's still up to you! It's your life! And all we can do for you is give you advice! Just remember to make the right one! And, you can be sure that we'll be here! Always! That's what friends are for, right? (Ugh! This sounds so cliche. But it's true, kay!)
Oh yeah. And about your fucking spammer. That "Minah" (name also very suckish. Choose more sophisticated code names lah! Like, maybe, glam&fab goddess? Isn't that just so fantabulous?). I can't believe that she actually dares to do that. As I've mentioned somewhere, this girl seriously has issues. Want me to reserve a first-rate room for world-class psychos at the Mental Institute for you? You soo need it, girl. Oh, we should probably admit you to the Schools for Retards first before we actually send you there cuz you seriously need to learn what "Minding your OWN business" is before you go anywhere. Also, you don't have to worry bout your make-over. Cuz I've already sent an entry of your particulars to the "Extreme Make-over" crew and got feedback that they would be seeking you soon. But after you see your psychiatrist. Too bad, huh. You're just not good enough for your laki. Methinks it's the reason why he left you for another girl. Or maybe you were actually forcing him to have sex with you and he got too pressurized and sick of your bloody face that he just left and made up some story. Aww.. I pity you, y'know. Really. I do. It must be very pathetic to be you. Lonely.. No friends.. No social life! Let alone a life. Why don't you just get a life first? And after that, we can talk about setting you up with another guy. I'm willing to help you, y'know. There are plenty of single guys that might be interested. But I must warn you that they're kinda of the "working class". I see them everyday. They're currently building the elevators in my house. Want me to get their numbers for you? Got one named Muthu. Another one Thambi. You want or not? Muahahaha! Sorry ah, babe! But I doubt that any one of my actually normal guy friends would want a slut like you. Too bad. So if you know what's good for you, just back off! Cuz you don't kno what we're capable of doing. If we ever find out who you are, we are sooo totally gonna make your life a living hell! Torture you until you commit suicide and go to hell. Literally.
Ooops! I've been a very bad girl. But I don't give a fcuk! Cuz she started it first! So we're gonna end it!
Ciao, people! Ciao!
2:52 AM
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