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The Glam&Fab Goddess-
Friday, May 22, 2009
So, here I am again. Another day passed, and I feel like I'm growing more matured and getting out of my shell as each day passes. Let's see. Where shall we start? Okay. Morning Assembly. Since Ms Maz is constantly absent from school, I decided to sit at the back. Away from the prying eyes and ears of Mr Kong. So I sat in front of Nora, which is always fun (except that she's currently undergoing some stuff. Not gonna mention. All that I'm going to say is that guys are really such as*holes. Well, not all. But most of them anyway.). So as Mr Kong was sending off the classes, I heard someone say "Eh, ___ never come today ah.". So I turned and surprise, surprise. It's Ashraf. Talking about ___ like I'm not there. And looking slyly at me. I flushed and looked down, mumbling some swear words like "chibai" and "f*ck". I ignored them and went on talking to Nora. But just as Ash was about to go off to his class, I heard him repeat the same sentence again. What a bloody ****. Ugh! Why do people seem to enjoy torturing me??! It's, like, so annoying! So, anyway, went to slack off a few minutes with Jermaine and Nora before going for that stupid ICT training. Seriously, it's like snoozeville up there. Received Science, Geography and History paper today.
History : 37/45
Geography : 48/70 (not so sure. Forgot the real thing)
Science : 60/95
So happy! I got an A1 for History! Again! I stil don't know whether I should take History or Literature next year. Went for mother tongue lesson at 12 pm. I was about to turn the bend to take the stairs to my Malay class when guess who I ran into? Yes, it's Ashraf. Again. And this time, he was with his clique. Damn, am I unlucky! He spotted me and said something like "Eh Kim, ah tu ___.". And ___ glanced for a second before looking away. Argh! He's driving me nuts! Fitriiiiiiii! Order your boyfriend not to tease me like that! It's ruining my rep and dignity! Seriously! Why won't people believe me when I say that I'm over ___? I was blushing all the way up to the Malay Classroom. But apparently, the Malay Classroom was being used as a mock paper exam room by this class. So we were forced to go down to the 2/6 class and be watched over by Mdm Prema. Which is sooo not good. Can't even talk. So if I can't talk, then I'll just text. I texted a whole bunch of people. One of them is Fit. I was whining about her boyfriend being such a pain in the a*s. Then I also texted Ashraf to tell him to friggin' stop the teasing. They passed by our class and they were giving me this look again. Jas kept calling me "gago" which is in Tagalog, and translates to "stupid". Am I stupid? And then there's Faiz who keeps asking me for porn vids! Hell, like I have any in my phone.
After school went out with Nora. Was supposed to go out with her and Fit but Fit cancelled out at the last minute to join Amani & co. On the way to the bus stop, Nora and I started acting crazy. I pretended to lie down on the grass as if she was raping me. Haha! Then we saw this red pick-up and we acted as if we wanted to climb up the back and do it there. But we didn't, k. And hey, we're teens, alright. Our sex hormones are at their peak. Okay, that sounded really perverse. But whatever. We took the 307 bus there. Nora sat all teh way at the back while I just stayed at the rear, near the door. I don't like alighting with difficulty. Yue Lin and Song Hong took the same bus as us so Yue Lin joined me while Song Hong sat down(and just for the record, Song Hong. I DON"T like Brendan. Never have and never will. I mean, when I said he was hot, I was talking on behalf of some girls from the netball team. I myself don't find him that hot. But whatever. Think all you want. Not like I care, cuz it's not true. And anyway, a friend of mine kinda likes him *nudge nudge* and I don't like to crush on the same guy as my friends.). Reached Lot 1 ate Kampong Fried Rice at the Food JUnction(Halal, kay, people). Then went to the library to read some mags. (Gosh! Megan Fox actually admitted to LOVING SEX. Ew!) After that went out and decided to disturb innocent passers-by. The plan was that Nora will walk behind someone while I walked in front of that person act like it was the first time I saw Nora. Gets? If you don't, then never mind. Just refer to Case Study #1.
Case #1:
Nora and I spotted an old man pushing his grandchild on a stroller coming towards us outside the library. Nora quickly walks behind him. As the Grand-daddy came nearer, I suddenly said "Nora!!" really loudly and wave at the old man. The victim looked surprised and turns around to see a laughing Nora. Get it now?
Case #2:
We spot a potential victim at that Level 2 CD shop beside Mini Toons. Definitely an Ah Pek. He was watching some wrestling thingy outside the shop with about a dozen other fanatics. I stand behind him while Nora stood at the front. Then, she suddenly turned around and said "Kim!" while waving to the Ah Pek. I didn't see what the Ah Pek's reaction was, but from the Nora's laughter, I'm sure it was something priceless.
Case #3:
We went to the bus terminal to try our luck there. It was really deserted cuz it was after peak hours already. So it was a very good place to prank some people. And just as we thought, we zeroed-in on this auntie. She was about 6 steps from us when I suddenly shouted "Hey!" while waving. The auntie jumped, clearly surprised, then smiled back, thinking it was her we were talking to. But then I waved again, this time purposely looking behind her. She looked back but there wasn't anyone behind her. So she looked back and us and then Nora started guffaw-ing. The auntie realized that we were probably messing around with her and started walking off, pissed and confused. Nora was laughing so hard she spilled her bubble tea on her skirt and peed a bit in her underwear. She said she saw me from the corner of her eyes and the way I did it was really stupid. LOL. We made a quick detour to the toilet where she dried herself off while I deposited all the products that had been rumbling inside me into the toilet bowl(read:crap). After that started walking back to Lot 1 again. But then we decided to play another game. This time, we started asking people "Eh, you Tricia's father/mother ah?". Haha!
Case #4:
On our way to Lot 1, we came upon another Chinese auntie carrying one of those shopping trolleys around. So we stopped her and asked her if she was Tricia's mother. She stopped and looked at us. Then she suddenly asked, "Where is the nearest toilet here?" in Malay. We laughed and she laughed along with us, then pointed to the direction of the toilet that we had just been from. Kudos to that auntie. What a good sport.
Didn't see anyon suitable for that same prank so we decided on pranking little kids. And where in Lot 1 can you find a lot of kids? At the Children's section of the Library. Duh! So we went back to the library to scout for more potential victims.
Case #5:
This little boy was using the search engine at the Children's section when Nora stood behind him and started saying "Hey there, little boy.". The poor toddler got scared and ran off. But wait! His father was actually not far from us! Luckily, he didn't see us.
Case #5:
A cute little eurasian boy was choosing a book amongst the shelves when I suddenly spotted him. I sat beside him and started saying "Hi!!" very loudly. In his face. His lip started trembling and he looked like he was about to cry and ran off to his momma. I ran off, too. Don't wanna get into trouble.
After walking around the Children's section and disturbing every kid we saw, we walked around the mall another time before calling it a day. So, see. I enjoyed myself. Again. Without thinking about ____. That's it then, my back's aching. Ciao!
4:28 AM
The Beauty Exposed ;
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
History Trip Pictures:
Can't see myself among all the lights.
I'm bestfriends with Yamashita and Percival!! XD
Who knows? She might be my ancestor.
Kiss me or else we're HISTORY! Haha!
My and Jermaine's role model : Elizabeth Choii (yeah right)
Hey people! I'm baaaaaaack! And better than ever. Exams ended, like, last week so yeah. Feel really relieved. I actually studied for the first time! haha! But then, I've heard that I've failed my Math and didn't do as well for my Science this time round. I was, like what the hell! I failed?? I studied! If I did fail, then that's it. I'll never study. Ever. Again. I mean, really. I'm so pissed off and disappointed. Ugh! Anyway, I will not let this kind of thing spoil my mood.
Had to go to the Hall after school today for a short briefing on the June Holidays Leadership Course. Which, I am not gonna attend. So I went up to the teacher and told her that I'd be away from the 3rd to the 19th of June. I thought that I could go back after informing her but she asked me to go back to my sit first. Ugh! I was rushing, for her info! Syaz and Nora planned to go to Lot 1. So I was really pissed off. To make things worst, she was, like, "So far, I had two of you coming up to me to tell me that you can't make it as overseas. But you need to tell me the exact date so that we might arrange another date for you." and then annonced my name and Yong Li's and asked us the specific dates of out trips. In front of the whole crowd. One thing I really dislike is attracting a crowd's attention in the wrong way. So I heard some voives saying "Eh, Kim, going back to the Philippines eh?" and then some were saying "Aiyoh. Later kana quarantined. Swine flu.". Whatever. Gosh. I flushed like a bloody tomato. Seriously, why didn't she just ask me when I went up to her? Does she need everyone to know that, hey, that girl is going overseas. And then I had to answer her, like, real loud. And I felt stupid saying 3 to 19 June. I've never felt so stupid in my life. And HE was there, for God's sake. Not that I care. I am soo OVER him. Think I'll take another long-term break from guys again. It was better when I wasn't crushing on someone. I mean, when I crush on someone, it's like there's another side of me that's not usually showing. I'm more blur, daydreaming all the time. And I don't want to be blur. I feel like such a ditzy bimbo. I want to be my normal self. The "Kim" that everybody knows. The girl that is funny and cheerful and friendly and talkative and alert. Not that I'm not any of this when I'm crushing one someone. It's just that, I tend to be a less better me when I like someone. Anyway, after these past few days(or weeks. Whatever), I realized that hey, I don't really need guys in my life. And yes, I know that it sounds cliche and and you've heard it before and all. But seriously, I really did feel that way. I enjoy the time I spend with my family and friends. I enjoy their company. I mean, I feel happy and free when I go out with Nora or Syaz or Joce or Fitri. Honestly. I enjoyed going sopping with Nora and Syaz on Monday. I enjoyed going to Woodlands with Fitri to buy those friggin' coloured contacts(which were much more expensive than the ones Yue Lin bought for me the last time. Yue Lin's : $18. Fitri's : $20. Kim's lost : $2. Haha! But nevermind. At least, I bonded with Fitri. Long time since last went out with her.). I enjoyed eating at New York New York with my family to celebrate my brother's birthday last Friday(and by the way, did you know that the New York New York branch in Lot 1 is Halal but the others aren't? Weird. Anyway, I just ate their beef lasagna. Just in case of the swine flu.). And I never really enjoy being with my family. Until recently. Now that I've entered Secondary School life, I find it hard to trust anyone. I don't know whotrust or believe sometimes. But when I get home, and see my Mom, I dunnoe. Everything-all traces of insecurity-just vanishes. Cuz I know that my Mom will always be there for me. Indirectly, she's kinda like one of my bestfriends now. I mean, I don't really confide in her. Who tells their mother that they're crushing on some guy in school? I mean, there are some of us who do tell our mothers. But I don't really feel comfortable sharing my latest object of attention with my mother. What do you expect me to say? "Hey Mom. I simply ah-dore _____. He is sooo CUTE. And I want him sooo bad. Please buy him for me just like how you get me everything I want."? That won't really work out. I don't know what my mom's reaction will be. But she gets me and sometimes, I don't have to say anything and she'll know what's bothering me. But that doesn't mean that I don't trust others. I do trust my friends. Nora, Syazwani, Afiqah, Aisyah, the Clique(Gloria, Fitri, Hidayah, Dina, Shafirah) etc. It's just that there're some things that I'd rather keep to myself than share with others. I may seem real loud and an extrovert. But seriously? There's a little side of introvert in me and a frail sensitive, insecure little girl inside of me wanting to be comforted and assured. I may be smiling all the time, but sometimes, those smiles are just painted on and have no actual meaning to them. I may say that I'm okay, but sometimes, those "okays" mean "Please don't leave me. Stay here with me and comfort me cuz I'm seriously unsure of myself.". I want someone to listen to me and offer me their shoulders while I cry and pour my heart out. Someone to rub my back and say that everything's fine. Unfortunately, I don't really find that reassurance from anyone. And it pains me, really. It hurts to know that no one seems to want to be my bestfriend. It's the suckiest thing ever. Seriously. God. I sound so pathetic. But whatever. It's not like my life's a secret anyway. My life's been an open book for a long time. An open book with the words on its pages faded. So that no one can read me properly, and instead, just turn to the cover of the book to judge me by it. Anyway, this is getting too heavy. Let's move on to something more lighter. Back to the subject of guys and crushes. As I've said, I realized that I don't really need them in my life. I'm happy just as I am. In fact, I've never felt so happy. I always feel light and refreshed and free. I guess that this latest ex-obsession of mine had made me grow into a much matured Kimberly. I'm not closing any doors, but I'm not opening any so widely either. If a guy manages to slip by the narrow way to get into my heart, then I'll accept him and open my doors wider for him to enter with much ease. If not, then that's it. Maybe it's not my time to love yet. I still have a lot in front of me. Whatever happens, I'll just leave it all to fate. I'm sure that it has something fantabulous in store for me. It's just that it's not the right time yet. But I know that I'll definitely love and be loved one day. By the imperfectly perfect guy. At the perfect time. In the most perfect circumstances.. Ciao!! xoxo
2:37 AM
The Beauty Exposed ;
