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Friday, October 2, 2009

Sat for the Mother Tongue Paper today. Chose the Letter Writing over the Dialogue cuz I didn't really understand what the Dialogue was about. I spent, like, 10 minutes, just looking at the paper, trying to come up with something. I finished it at around 8:50. After that, I spent 5 minutes choosing which topic to use for my essay. The first one was about "The good and the bad working together" or something like that. The second topic was some crap about going to Johor. But I chose the third one. "Suatu Harapan yang tidak Kesampaian". Which basically means "Hopes that weren't fulfilled". I spent another 10 minutes trying to come up with a plot when it struck me. I've wasted time coming up with an idea when all along, the idea I was looking for had been in my mind. No, actually, it was from across my classroom. And it was a HE. I'm sure you get who I'm referring to here. Anyway, it was mostly about how it pains me to know that HE likes her. And how I reflected and realized that before I liked him, I was actually pretty contented and happy with my life. How everything was so not complicated and how I felt so free. And then he came into my life and made everything difficult for me without intending to. I concluded my essay with this:

"Mungkin dia suatu harapan yang tidak kesampaian. Namun, hidup saya baru bermula. Saya yakin saya tidak suka dia lagi. Tetapi, saya tahu, dia masih dalam hati saya kerana saya sembunyikan dia di sana sambil menungguh untuk orang yang akan memberi hidup kepada hatiku yang sudah mati. Pada suatu hari, saya tahu saya boleh menyampaikan suatu harapan yang lagi bagus dan besar daripada harapan ini."

Or some shit like that. I don't know. Can't remember the exact words. But I definitely used the best Malay words and grammar I knew. Anyway, if translated, it means:

"Maybe he's something I didn't achieve. However, my life has just begun. I think I don't like him anymore. But I know that he's still somewhere in my heart because I hid him there while waiting for the person who will give life to my dead heart. One day, I know I can reach something that's way better and greater than this hope."

I was laughing quietly by myself while reading it. It was so emo. And my Malay language was so suckish I can't help but laugh. I doubt the teachers will be able to understand what I was trying to say. But it's okay. I'm not exactly a Malay, so it's understandable if my Malay sucked. But I can say that although the language was kinda shitty, each and every word was written with meaning. I meant every word I wrote. Anyway, moving on, paper 2 was surprisingly easier to tackle than the previous papers. Usually, my answer script would be filled with blanks. But for this paper, I managed to answer all the questions(though I just made a guess for most of them.). But the comprehension was damn hard. I didn't understand what it was trying to say cuz the language was, like, intermediate. The paper ended at 12:15. Hung out with Shaf and Afiqah while waiting for the HML students. Yes! One paper down! Just a few more to go! I can do this! If I ace every subject, I'll get to go to a Europian country. Otherwise, if I get As for Math, English and Science, I'll get to go to another Asian country AND an iPhone. If I get at least B for everything, I'll get a new phone( but not an iPhone. :(). If no As, no anything. Sad, huh. So, yeah. I better study now. Aiming for Straight As! Ciao, peepoz! xoxo

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